Desire and Despair

by Maceman

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This album represents folk-rock at its very best.

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released August 21, 2008

All songs arranged, recorded , produced and played by Maceman except where otherwise noted.

Highschool and The Strain recorded at Grant Ave Studios, Hamilton, Ontario.
John Lewis - Lead Guitars ; Bob Doidge - Bass and Mellotron; Lisa Winn - Background Vocals
Drums - Tony Vlacic

Beautiful Day recorded at Mainway Studios, Burlington, Ontario.
Steve Hogg - Bass; Kevin Briggs - Lead Guitars
Atilla Turi - Drums

Movin’ On and How Can I love You
James Ryce - Vocals
Steve Nylander - Additional Pianos

Can You Blame Me
James Ryce- Background Vocals

Sad Sad Song
James Ryce- Background Vocals
Bill Mecca- Saxophone

I’m that Man
James Ryce- Drums, Bass
Bill Mecca- Saxophone; Steve Morton- Keyboard

All other songs recorded at my home studio in Hamilton, Ontario.
Cover Photos by Irene Suchocki (www.irenesuchocki.com)

Member of SOCAN & Neilson Broadcast Data Systems.

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Track Name: I'm That Man
On a cold cold
November's Night
Was a young man
Under the light
Didn't have no money
Didn't have no food
Just a brown paper bag
Once filled with booze

Came the warm warm
Rains of July
Still the young man
Laid on his side
Waiting for someone
To open their heart
To show him the way
To make a new start

I'm that Man
I'm that man
Who you behold
Down on the ground

In Times of sorrow
When we all ask why
Do we look down
And then pass on by?
I didn't ask for money
I didn't want your food
But who was my neighbor
Through this solitude?

I'm that Man
I'm that man
Who you behold
Down on the ground
Track Name: Rode My Bike
Rode my bike
Into town
Left my bags
On the ground
And then i said goodbye
to a world gone wrong

So I'm writing this song

I've done some things
I must admit
Just silly things
I'm not proud of it
So I'm stepping out
I'm saying bye, bye, bye

And I'm singing this song

Rode my bike
Past the city line
Watched it burn
As I looked behind
And i said goodbye
To a world gone wrong

I'm writing this song
Track Name: Lonely Moon
HERE I AM ALONE AGAIN
YES MY LIFE’S INCOMPLETE
AND THE MOON-IT LAUGHS AT ME
AND THE SUN-IT YELLS DEFEAT

SO I WALK WITH MY HEAD IN MY HAND
AND I LOOK FAR BEYOND
STILL THE MOON-IT LAUGHS AT ME
AND THE SUN- IT YELLS DEFEAT

AND THE MOON…
AND THE SUN…

EVERY TIME AND TIME AGAIN
I THINK OF MY PAST
AND THE MOON-IT LAUGHS AT ME
AND THE SUN-IT YELLS DEFEAT

SO I BUILD MY BRIDGES STRONG
AND I KEEP WALKING ON
AND THE MOON-IT LAUGHS AT ME
AND THE SUN-IT YELLS DEFEAT
Track Name: Fire and Rainfall
FIRE IN THE MORNING
FIRE IN THE NIGHT
IT'S DARK HERE IN THE SHALLOW PARTS
IT'S DARK HERE IN THE LIGHT
HERE I'VE SEEN A RIVER FLOW
BEYOND AN OPEN WALL
AND IN MY DREAMS
WHAT'S BEEN CARESSED
IS NOONES FAULT AT ALL.

RAINFALL IN THE MORNING
RAINFALL IN THE NIGHT
IT'S WET HERE IN THE SHALLOW PARTS
WITHOUT THE GUIDING LIGHT
HERE I'VE SEEN A CHILD FALL
A THOUSAND STORIES TALL
AND IN MY DREAMS
WHAT'S BEEN CARESSED
IS NOONES FAULT AT ALL
Track Name: Can You Blame Me
I may not be able to
Say the words you need me to
When you need it

But I know deep in my heart
And I knew it from the start
That I do

When you say those words that hurt me so
Can you blame me?

We may not see eye to eye
You may even start to cry when you need to
Try to do the best I can
And you still don’t understand when I do

When you say those words that hurt me so
Can you blame me?
For feeling the way I do?
For writing this song to you?
It’s only a love song

When the road seems dark ahead
You can always rest your head on my shoulder
Just a word and I’ll be there
With a smile to show I care cause I do

When you say those words that hurt me so
Can you blame me?
For feeling the way I do?
For writing this song to you?
It’s only a love song

For feeling the way I do?
For writing this song to you?
It’s only a love song
Track Name: Sad Sad Song
Babe, I never thought I'd see you leave
We’ve grown far apart
I guess I’ll just be lonely {yeahhhha}

Our lives together was such a special thing
I thought you were mine forever
I’m so lonely

Now that you’re gone
I guess I’ll write you this sad sad song
I was so wrong
That why I’m writing you this sad sad song

Our moment together was such a special thing
If I thought it would work
You know I’d do it again
I’m so lonely

I'll keep the memory deep inside my heart
It was such a shame that we had to part
I’m so lonely

Now that you’re gone
I guess I’ll write you this sad sad song
I was so wrong
That why I’m writing you this sad sad song

It was so wrong
That why I’m writing you this sad sad song

It was so wrong
That why I’m writing you this sad sad song
Track Name: Movin' On
Don’t Blame Me
Yes I lit the Fire
But the fire – it’s gone.

You Can’t
Turn your head from the flame
But I’m moving on.

Ohhho
How you sit in your chair
And you sit and you stare
Writing books until dawn
But I’m Moving on.

Don’t Blame Me
Yes, I told you the truth
But the truth was too long made you hide.

Open your eyes
And then you’ll see the pain
If you look past those lies.

Ohhho
How you sit in your chair
And you sit and you stare
Writing books until dawn
But I’m Moving on.

Don’t Blame Me
Yes I lit the Fire
But the fire – it’s gone.

You Can’t
Turn your head from the flame
But I’m moving on.

Ohhho
How you sit in your chair
And you sit and you stare
Writing books until dawn
But I’m Moving on
Track Name: How Can I Love You
You tell me I’m the one
You want to stay
Been searching oh so long
And now you feel okay

But let me make things clear
So you will see
The man you say you want
Is full of uncertainty

But how can I love you
When I can’t even love myself
Believe me I’m trying
But I’m filled with so much doubt

Look away babe if you can
Keep moving on
So much for you to see
Be clearer when I’m gone

The clouds won’t last all day
Wind pushes through
Revealing sunny ways
And clearer skies of blue
Track Name: High School
I am so lost
You know I am lost without you
I am so lost
You know I am lost without you

I am so lost
You know I am lost without you
I am so lost
You know I am lost without you

I travel alone It’s a lighter load
Then I’m used to today.
‘cause I’ve been hurt too many times
And I won’t get hurt again.

You see, I’ve learned through hard experience
Not everybody’s playing fair
So I go about my own business
Without even splitting hairs

Reminds me of high school
And the silly crushes we had
We thought were real

You said your love was forever
No, it wouldn’t fade to gray
And now there’s a hole where I had my soul
Since you took your love away

It’s not that I don’t miss the loving
And all the funny times we’ve shared
Walking winter’s blows just to bring you a rose
Just so you’d know that I cared

I guess you can say I’ve grown bitter
Or grown accustomed to the pain
‘cause I’ve walked this road so many times
Out in the pouring rain

Reminds me of high school
And the silly crushes we had
We thought were real

You said your love was forever
No, it wouldn’t fade to gray
And now there’s a hole where I had my soul
Since you took your love away
I am so lost
You know I am lost without you
I am so lost
You know I am lost without you

I am so lost
You know I am lost without you
I am so lost
You know I am lost without you

Reminds me of high school
And the silly crushes we had
We thought were real

You said your love was forever
No, it wouldn’t fade to gray
And now there’s a hole where I had my soul
Since you took your love away
And now there’s a hole
Where I once had my soul
Since you took your love
Since you took your love away
Track Name: The Strain
WHEN I FEEL THE STRAIN…
I WRAP MYSELF INTO A BALL IT…
IT HIDES THE PAIN…

AND WHEN I FEEL THE COLD…
I RUN FOR SHELTER BEHIND THE SWELTERING… AND WINDY LOAD…

AND IT SEEMS THAT ALL MY LIFE I’VE BEEN WRONGED
I CAN’T ESCAPE WHAT I’VE LONGED
AND ALL MY LIFE I’VE BEEN WRONGED…

I NEED TO FEEL YOU CLOSE…
‘CAUSE NEXT TO NOTHING THERE’S ALWAYS SOMETHING…
THAT MEANS THE MOST…

AND ALL MY DAYS HAVE GROWN LONGER
BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL STRONGER
YES ALL MY DAYS ARE SO LONG…
OH ALL MY DAYS HAVE GROWN LONGER
BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL STRONGER
I CAN’T ESCAPE WHAT I’VE LONGED…

I NEED TO FEEL YOU CLOSE…
‘CAUSE NEXT TO NOTHING THERE’S ALWAYS SOMETHING…
THAT MEANS THE MOST…

BUT I CAN’T ESCAPE WHAT I’VE LONGED…

WHEN I FEEL THE STRAIN…
I WRAP MYSELF INTO A BALL IT…
IT HIDES THE PAIN…
Track Name: Wish You Could Feel
I wish you could feel
Just how I feel
If you would see
Through these eyes that bleed
The yearning to learn
The meaning of worth
Yet here I remain
The Last Man on Earth

I wish you could find
The meaning of time
We’re vapors today
The next gone away
The more that I think
No more can I sink
Because of this curse
The Last Man on Earth

When People
Stand on others
Just to get ahead
What is it For?
Will they want more?

I wish you could feel
Just how I feel
Yet here I remain
The Last Man on Earth

I wish you could feel
Just how I feel
Yet here I remain
The Last Man on Earth
Track Name: Floating Voyage
CRAZY AS IT MAY SEEM
I WOULD GO OUT ON A WHIM TO SEE THE COLOURS FADING IN TO THE SEA

FUNNY WHAT I WOULD KNOW
SEND MY MESSAGE TO THE WEAK UNTIL CAPACITY PEAKS TO THE FULL

AND I HAD A DREAM…
FLOATING… DOWN… STREAM…

AND I HAD A THOUGHT…
I WAS SOLD AND BOUGHT…

CRAZY AS IT MAY SEEM
I WOULD CLIMB OUT ON A LIMB TO SEE THE COLOURS FADING IN TO THE SEA
Track Name: Beautiful Day
IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY SO I DECIDED TO WALK

WITH NO DIRECTION IN MIND I HEADED SOUTH ON THE BLOCK

SAW THE POOR WITH THEIR HANDS OUT COLLECTING NOTHING BUT DUST

THE LOCOMOTION COMMOTION AND THE SCREECH OF A BUS

I REMEMBERED ALL THE PLACES I WOULD FREQUENTLY PASS

NOT TWO YEARS AGO BOARDS WHERE THERE WAS GLASS

NO MORE RECORD STORES, HEADSHOPS, CLOTHING OR SHOES

JUST A MASS OF WANDERING SOULS WITH NOTHING TO DO….

NO LIGHTS AROUND US ONLY BLACKNESS AND GREY

BUT WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY

AND ALL THE FOGS HAVE MEDDLED AND SETTLED BUT HEY

WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL…

DAYLIGHT BREAKS INTO MY WINDOW AT DAWN

SO I GOT UP AND I TREMBLED LIKE FIRST STEPS OF A FAWN

THE AIR AROUND WAS THICKER WITH THE SHOUTS OF DEBATE

'CAUSE THE STREETS WERE ALL FILLED UP WITH VIOLENCE AND HATE

SO I LIT MY CANDLE IN A FLASH I WAS GONE

NO MORE NOISE POLLUTION RAINING THICK ON MY LAWN

I FINALLY REACHED THE PREACHED THE END OF MY GOAL

AND WITH OPEN ARMS I WAS SWALLOWED UP WHOLE…

NO LIGHTS AROUND US ONLY BLACKNESS AND GREY

BUT WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY

AND ALL THE FOGS HAVE MEDDLED AND SETTLED BUT HEY

WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY


NO LIGHTS AROUND US ONLY BLACKNESS AND GREY

WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY

AND ALL THE FOGS HAVE MEDDLED AND SETTLED BUT HEY

WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL….. DAY


YOU CAN RUN RIGHT THROUGH YOU CAN WAIT & MEDITATE

BUT NEVER CAN YOU PRETEND… (NEVER CAN YOU PRETEND)

YOU CAN HOP RIGHT BY YOU CAN EVEN TRY TO HIDE

BUT THE PROBLEM'S STILL THERE IN THE END

YOU CAN RUN RIGHT THROUGH YOU CAN WAIT & MEDITATE

BUT NEVER CAN YOU PRETEND… (NEVER CAN YOU PRETEND)

YOU CAN HOP RIGHT BY YOU CAN EVEN TRY TO HIDE

BUT THE PROBLEM… IS STILL THERE… IN THE END


NO LIGHTS AROUND US ONLY BLACKNESS AND GREY

BUT WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY

AND ALL THE FOGS HAVE MEDDLED AND SETTLED BUT HEY

WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY

NO LIGHTS AROUND US ONLY BLACKNESS AND GREY

WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY

AND ALL THE FOGS HAVE MEDDLED AND SETTLED BUT HEY

WHEN I LEFT THIS MORNING IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY…

A BEAUTIFUL DAY…

IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL DAY…

A BEAUTIFUL DAY…